Potluck - take what you want and move on.

So, I went to Tennesee this weekend, just a little bit north of Knoxville. The dogsport I do was having a regional championship and I was asked to lay tracks for the event.

I was a nervous wreck, possibly, probably more so than the actual competitors, who at this level have usually done this a time or two. It was my 'rookie' event. I got a ton of support from some very important people in the sport, and in the end I kicked butt. No way I could have done it without them though, and the best part, is I can't wait to do it again. The wanting to do it again part, tells me I really did love it, the preparation for weeks before, the putting down the track, and then following the competitor back over my track and being able to find my footprints, my corners and my articles.

There was definitely a fly in the ointment, but I've wasted enough time worrying/thinking/wondering about it and I've come to the decision that enough is enough, and I'm just going to let it go. (The emphasis here is to remind me, not so much you).

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Work was just awful today - for the first time in almost two years, I had a day that made me feel like a flounder - 30 feet up a tree. I keep waiting for the feeling to go away, and it's just isn't, and I have no idea what to do about it.

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When you take a drink of your diet pepsi and discover it's diet cherry pepsi - grab a trashcan, you may very well vomit.

That shit is horrible. Someone tell me why Robitussin is making soft drinks now - eegad.

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Today, while I was at work, someone came to my house and planted sunflowers in my backyard for me. Looking at the empty packets on my kitchen table made me cry.
Does anyone else find it really hard to let someone love you or is that just me?

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Today, my brother Mark should have been celebrating his 52nd birthday. We should be sitting at the Mongolian barbecue on Van Dorn Street eating and laughing and making fun of each other.

That we aren't and that somehow I've gone four years without him seems criminal, and it just sucks.

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I bought myself a GPS thingie for my car, and people, that thing is awesome. I programmed it to talk to me with an Austrailian accent, cuz that is even more awesome. I call her Karen. Added awesomeness is when you are in the middle of nowhere (or Knoxville) and you're hungry, you just push the food button and SHAZAM you get all the restaurants nearby. Best 250 bucks I've spent in a long time.

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I'm working from home tomorrow, making roasted vegetable lasagna and going to dog training.
It's gotta be a good day.

The 10 Random Things I owe to 'Roo.

I can't not do a 'tag'... I especially can't not do one from 'Roo. .. my friend who talks to me for hours - just cause, who never makes me feel worse about mentioning Hooters at a business meeting, who reminds that I have much to be proud of, and Roo, our friendship is definitely one of them.

So... 10 Random Things ........

1. I can't wash my face without brushing my teeth, and I can't brush my teeth without flossing them first. These things have to go together, I have tried to talk myself out of this stupid compulsion. I'll make it to the couch after washing my face and I'll sit there unable to focus on anything until I get up and floss then brush my damn teeth.

2. I hate brussel sprouts., and I don't like you very much if you're trying to talk me into liking them, so just stop that crap.

3. When I go on a road trip somewhere, I have to make two lists. The list of things I can do right now (meaning the day before), and the list of things I have to do before I walk out the door. If I forget to put something on the list, I will write it down just to cross it off.

4. One of the things on the list is always, 'buy twizzlers'. My car won't go without them, I swear.

5. I just recently discovered that I love jalapeno peppers.

6. I shoplifted exactly one time, when I was about 13 years old. I (tried) to steal (read: I got caught) a bookmark from a Christian Book Store. (This still makes me laugh).

7. I recently surpised a friend I hadn't seen in over a year. She was so happy to see me she cried. I will remember the look on her face when she first saw me for the rest of my life. I will not wait so long to go see people who love me ever again.

8. I have not been running enough and I *hate* the way the absence of running makes me feel.

9. I don't love the beach... but this summer, I think I'm going to make some of my best memories there.

10. With my tax refund this year I'm buying deck furniture and an automobile GPS Thingie. I figure I'll always be able find my way home, and I'll have an awesome place to sit. If "W" gives us additional money - I'm defnitely going to spend it frivolously, I'm outstanding at that.

Happy new week people.